Sigh

First I was too busy to blog then I was too tired to blog and right now I am blank about blogging.

There is so much happening and so much to blog about but I can't collect my thoughts into meaningful entries. Thus I have just been sharing the efforts of others by posting interesting but borrowed concepts.

Well concert has begun and nerves played the first half and vibes the second. We recovered from blunders. Improvisations from certain members made things more hype to take the dullness off certain songs. Forward thinkers are bubbling with new ideas for the next show. Some of the very simple things like looking up and engaging your audience to make them feel a part of the show were ignored as usual. But how exactly did persons think they would be able to do what they had not practised? Since concert practice began we begged persons to practice looking up because performance time is a poor time to start to make changes. So they didn't look. Dance moves made up last night were forgotten. Expected.

Subsequent shows will see dramatic improvements as persons get more comfy with the spotlight. Once again we have a projector and I have no idea what is happening with it. Am I being misrepresented? Why is it that these things keep happening? I'm not saying it may not have been discussed; I was absent for a week a month ago. But I didn't hear anything subsequently. That's flogging another dead horse and frankly.... just make the glue or corned beef with it and not waste more time.

I look forward to viewing the concert on DVD...hint hint. Aaaah who am I kidding. I'm still waiting on the last one. Shoot I'm waiting on the CD for the last one. I ran up my mouth with so many ppl about pan coming into the new millenium and I've had to eat humble pie. Good thing I didn't take orders or money.

I think the band is afraid of success. They want to do enough to say they doing something but not enough to have to risk dedicating more time. I recall Pearl Jam who were the kings of video. Each album release was followed by lovely videos but no tours, no interviews. Critics called them the greatest band that never was. We've spawned so many bands and they have gone on to be more popular. We depend so much on living in the shadow of what has gone before that we aren't interested in trying to add to it.

Simply updating the web site would do wonders for presentation. Then we could actually go out on a limb and use the web site to sell CDs and DVDs of the concerts we have. Doing it on-line cuts over-head and doesn't require the dedication of too much time. Again we'd rather not because .... I have no idea why not! I wish someone would tell me why we don't want to progress. Why do we not want to do these things that would benefit the band?! We not going on tour....that's not even an option. But we can gain cyber notoriety with just a little work to improve exposure.

I see the Trini pan sites and many out of date too so it seems to be a Caribbean problem. The US and Sweedish sites are updated regularly and they ain't jack compared to us!!! But they are willing to market themselves. I guess I just believe that after so much effort and dedication we should have something tangible to show for it. I've seen two Panoridim concerts; my first was in 96 before I joined and the second was the DVD Rohan made that was supposed to be such a big hit. We made music videos with TVJ and CVM, haven't seen those. Why haven't we given our recording of the National Anthem to movie houses and theatres and other places so they have an option of playing it? We could stream parts of a concert on-line; again just for the exposure.

Stella maris went to France!! Bethel has launched 2 albums and was supposed to go to Japan. Hummingbirds, clearly inferior to us has been to Trini so many times. The least we could do is try to build on the legacy we inherited.

I'm all depressed now cause once again I know this falls on deaf ears. Ppl come and go and all we have to show for their contribution is a few personal pics and memories. No dedications, no collages, no nothing. Camille, Aleiya, and myself leaving the band after concert; who else is leaving I don't know. They'll suffer the same fate as former members; regailed in stories and then.........