No it does not mean that suddenly I have become dumb. It may feel so, but I cannot divest myself of my responsibility to do my work by saying that I am now dumb and thus unable to cope.
I had to write this because my poor mother who perhaps has always been very proud of her son's ability to master whatever he puts his hand to, is now in a quandry. She is not sure how to look at this situation. She is questioning the programme, the testing and measurments schemes, etc.... And I am really sorry to be putting her through this. I was not able to bounce back in usual style and triumph. This one is going to take some real old-fashioned elbow grease and sacrifice to claw my way to the top. It is quite possible for me to rise to the occassion. But it would be silly of me to think of doing so without learning the lesson before me.
I am humbled but challenged to jump back in. I fully understand the Med School experience now.
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